.Lim . lee ling.

LOST SOUL

2008-08-21T01:35:00.002+08:00

someone today told me to start blogging. Then i looked at my blog and it started getting me thinking again. Now i remember why i stopped blogging and why i don't even look at my blog even when i'm online for the past yr.

Blogging makes me think. It makes me think soooo soooo sooo mcuh. It reminds me of my past, present and think of my future. It makes me misses people i had in the past. Most importantly, it always reminds me of how LOST i am.

I guess when i'm not lost, i would start again. Hope that someday it will come

my 21st

2007-08-27T19:47:00.001+08:00

my favourite aunty and uncle

my 21st bday. i guess with all the jinx that happen to me since form 3 on my birthday, is now finally over. i enjoyed myself. The whole wide world was there. Except my beloved best friend n nerd. If they were there it would be complete. My favourite aunty n uncle came, was pretty upset at the start cos they said they couldnt make it. But they did...*muaks* to u guys.

pulau redang

2007-08-27T18:07:00.000+08:00

Its been sometime since i last post anything. That is not because i was busy or wat so ever. I was just simply feeling lazy and wanting to be alone. i have a lot to post though.

REDANG

nothing much to describe this particular trip there. Its pretty boring for me, but im pretty sure it wasnt the beach or the place. It was jus simply the crowd i was with. I'll jus post up a few pics to decribe the day. oh yeah...by the way i went there like July 7 i think haha...

this song so describe my mood now

2007-07-26T18:58:00.001+08:00

{verse 1}
Alone in this house again tonight
I've got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

{chorus}
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with my pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

{verse 2}
Would it help if i turned the sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

{chorus}
Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with my pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry......

{chorus}
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with this pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry......

2007-07-26T18:27:00.000+08:00

ive been facing a lot of problems lately. i feel horrible about what i have done the past, i learn from it and i wanna change. but its just really really tough. i have no idea how to do it sometimes, i kinda lost track of things. although the recent issues are about my past, i still feel horrible. i have never been really happy since the day i know what have i done in the past and also admitting my mistakes, because i am still trying change.

there are a number things that is making me unhappy. but i cannot admit it because it brings out the best in me. i always think that i am not allowed or i should not be happy because i dun deserve it. what ive done in the past, this is my karma.

recently, ive been avoiding my problems. i am just not ready to face it or even talk about it or even do anything about it. i am just not ready and ive been turning to my alcohols to avoid facing my problem. i have no one i can really talk to. jesh isn't here and he is the only one i can really talk to. i hope he will be back soon.

results

2007-07-11T16:50:00.000+08:00

my results are out. weeeeeeeeeeee!!! i feel so relief. my worries is all gone now. =)

Unit Grade Mark Unit Title
009754 5 50 Finance (International) 302
010855 6 68 Public Relations (Principles) 102
003822 6 64 Sales Management 230
003900 5 55 Strategic Marketing 310

the above is my results for semester 1, 2007. i pass everything. i am damn happy. im closer to my dreams, closer to having what i want in life. i am graduating end of this year. i will and i must! hehe

sanctuary

2007-06-25T05:33:00.000+08:00

its my third time in sanctuary. the place kinda suck...cos its so damn small n so damn banyak ppl. anyway, i wasnt dress to go to sanctuary..i followed my sis out cos i was bored waiting for my bf at home and i didnt know she was going to sanctuary. i tot she was going to laundry. casually, i wore slippers n short n a top. and some bloody asshole stepped on my sliipper n my slipper is now broken. bloody hell. now i need to get a new flip flops. curse that fella man.

anyway, that night was alright...just go there for fun. drinking, gossiping cos BCS is there ahaha. anyway, that night there were a bunch of 40 yr old mens...to be precise fat mens! they wanted to get to know me n my sis n all. so i gave my name as elaine and my sis is stephanie hahaha couldnt think of any at that time. they are so fucking flirtacious. its just so irritating!! at the moment i din know what to do but jus layan them by answering one word. smile laugh. whatever! plus it was jus us girls there. when finally my sister's guy colleague came back. i straight away dragged him n said "hey, this is my bf" haha n pushed my sis colleague to them. haha thanks for helping that night oon.

after exam partayy!!

2007-06-25T05:10:00.000+08:00

finally exams are over... i can finally party!! went to maison with my classmates. maison it is man.. saw the whole lot of bunch of metro ppl in maison. the night started pretty early. so it was kinda boring at the start, then it turn up alright. since everyone started coming. but i hated my table.. damn a lot of ppl there pushing jus to pass through. ma hai cant u all stay in one place *back at me* if my table were not there i would have done the same haha...but it was so irritating!! some of them can jus push u, step on ur feet *my oh so beautiful feet* then never say sorry or even anything about it. but anyway it was all good... cos i get to DRINK!! DRINK DRINK DRINK...my fav

the girls

robin goodness gracious *u suck* hahaha

love u both

my pak fan chai fren

we love u

big girl LILIAN

2007-06-17T05:04:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BRITHDAY LILIAN TOO. AS USUAL AND EVERY DAY IN YOUR LIFE I HOPE YOU ARE BLESSED WITH LOVED AND HAPPINESS FROM EVERY SINGLE PERSON.

*i guessed i dun have to post so banyak pictures, cos i think lili took damn a lot dee" so go see her multiply or her blog*

2007-06-04T17:04:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING. I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH. MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE FAST FAST K. MUAKS. WISHING U A HEALTHY, LOVING, LOTS OF MONEY AND GREAT ACHIEVEMENT THIS YEAR. MUAKS

velvet nights

2007-06-04T04:01:00.000+08:00

velvet once again. i was there with my bf n my sister and as well as her colleagues. before i went, the whole time in my mind was...its gonna be so boring boring boring. but heck it. i need my drinks before the exam. but then it turn out to be lots of fun, honestly. clubbing with my sister is damn haps ok!! i actually miss hanging out with her since i was so busy during the weekdays studying n wasnt home. plus during weekends we both have our plans. so we hardly see each other, but clubbing with her is just so damn haps. and my main mission to go there was accomplished. anyway, it was all fun. for me drinking is the best. i love to drink. ppl who knows me, know that damn well. but i cant drink a lot..*sobs* bad drinker.

with my baby darling

drinks drinks drinks my favourite

yeeng meng *hot stuff*

oon the shortie

playing game!! making ppl drink!! something i am good at!! =) games i meant

the two most important ppl in my life *i love u guys deep deep*

my beloved sis

group pic

memories

2007-05-31T12:43:00.000+08:00

jus suddenly thinking back on the past... highlights of my life. there were ups n downs.
now i dun hang out with my high school frens dee. pearly, shannie, suzz, carmen n soph are all around the world. jesh is on the sea somewhere in the world. seng has a gf no time for me. =). nard is bumming around but i got no time for him. subang guys are not so tau kei anymore they have changed from a boy boy to MENS in black. ahah. my vu frens, which are so much fun, but i dunno where are they anymore.my oldest sis is miles away n married. leehooi is busy with work, no time to fight with me n irritate me before i sleep. my youngest sis has boobs n ass, shes all grown. my parents are old, but still as possesive n caring. my bf is back from aussie but too busy with work.

those ppl that are still alive...which i know u guys are. keep in touch ok! missing u guys!! call me or leave me a comment. even thou u guys maybe somewhere else in the world

jus simply hanging out with her n talking to her she is quite spastic sometimes

rajesh bday 2005

singpore shopping n hanging out with my lil cousins

hanging out with soph *contagious laugh*

pearly's farewell *oh so early*

my frequent hang outs with them & jesh

occasional visit to decanter drinking

occasional visits to red box

atmosphere nights when we were underage hahahaa

merdeka's eve 2005

world cup finals...in slippery senoritas

the annual trips to hk n us sisters hanging out together bitching about one another

tha annual trips to haatyai for food, bra, undies

world cup semi finals in genting...sleepless nights, liquors, games n mahjonggg n jus us

carmen's farewell!! drinking, games n silliness *burn my fringe that night* sobs

the days when me, seng, nard and jesh are single *sort of* my bf was in aussie then. we had fun, bitching about other ppl, ourselves, our lifes, and lots more things haha

my bf leaving to aust for the first time

my birthday 2005, when i had everyone with me... suzz, pearly, shannie, lili and lots more...

vu days with crazy ppl

jerena - contagious laugh

missing the days in high school

my sensitive skin

2007-05-30T00:15:00.001+08:00

*oh my god...it look like some huge insect jus bit me with its sesungut(if thats what it calls) like a super huge huge spider bit me...sobss* helppp

i think i have very very sensitive skin. the pics, its not any diseases are recently was infected with. but its jus plain mosquito bite. i tried putting mopiko, zam bak, fung yau, and even this cream i bought for RM21.80 still wont work!! i dunno how!! help...very sad la me!!! but my sand fly bite...is recovering is much better now...its jus dry skin peeling off!! happy me!

jus finish my 8000 words assignment, waas damn stessful...never had much sleep n laughter n food n shitting time. but after all the hard work, i jus had to reward myself hahah so i went shopping n bough myself 3 wonderful tops to day...haha waste money again!! im broke again!! oh no...i was rich then now broke!!
what is this man?? im suppose to be saving money so i can shift out as soon as possible. dun worry...i got planning one!! haaha =) i only 1 month can shop rm200 n less...the lesser the better!! sobsss...thats damn sad!! but waht to do, i need to be used to it man...im gonna be on my own in like waht less than 1 yr time =).
damn after so much, i still have a take home exam to do. this friday hand in. thank god is 1500 words...chilling laa!! =) better go read the question now!! i havent even read it yet haha

Loft KL

2007-05-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

went to loft kl last sat!! really needed to go to club that night. after all the stress ive been thru since mon-fri. was craving for alcohol. did not care where was i going, whom i was going with.. all i cared was i needed the alcohol. music sucks at loft. prefer velvet no matter what.

too many post for this month

2007-05-25T12:50:00.001+08:00

its been 2 years since i blogged and this month has the most posts thru out these 2 years. including this, i have 9 post for this month. makes me feel a bit lifeless thou. but then again, im too bored online.
im not always online, when i come online. its either i have something to look for, or even something to do. i dun come online just to chat or keh poh with my frens blog or frenster. but at times like this, i have nothing else to do. i have a 8000 words group assignment. which is due like next mon. its tough. so since monday i started on my ASSignment, ive been online in coll ever since then n almost 24 hours of the day.
so when im not doing my assignment,*resting my brain* the only thing i do is reading ppl's blog over n over again *plus they dun blog everyday* n the only blog i read is yong lilian. suzz. liann. carm. su lin. eric*lately*. the rest of my frens link, they dun update their blog at all. or prob they do like few months once. i know there is frenster but i only see those updated pics n not everyone on my frens list that i see. so i practically have nothing else to do. so blogging is the only thing i can do.
im very stress.. after this assignment due, i have to cope up on my studies in order to pass my exams. see i dun go for class, i dunno what is going on i dunno anything at all. so im in a quite tough position. god... help me!!

my disgustingg feet

2007-05-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

close flap

open flap

im soo bothered by this thing on my feet. its a sand fly bite...i see the dr. and he gave me medicine but it doesnt seem to be healing. plus its been prob like 1 week plus since ive seen the doc. arghh....help!!
now i can be nominated for having the ugliest feet. *see its nominating, hoping there's one out there who can be awarded* hahaha

before chip-ping san leong

2007-05-23T15:35:00.000+08:00

u guys are awake?? n not late

so early drinking champagne *cheers*

*drink up*

one pose before we leave

the car

group pic *serious*

1,2,3 JUMP!!

tai chi 1

tai chi 2

tai chi 3

tai chi 4

tai chi 5

group pic *serious*

lets pretend to talk haha

best man n groom...lets talk a gay walk before u married

"lets have a heart to heart talk...im gonna miss our nights out"

"becos u get married, u gotta get wacked" - u got conned!!

more guys to bash u up

*bish*bish*

*bish*bish*

we arrive the hotel

chip san leong - part2

2007-05-23T14:08:00.000+08:00

anxiously walking to the hotel room

he is in the hotel suite now

the first game

had to drink the water from the pail, after the best man pick out the marbles

the 2nd game...waxing time

the arms

the pubic

third game...swing ur banana

successful!

the 4th game - make a caard

card making

my beautiful sis in her kei poee

moneyy money moneyyy - hoi moon lai si

kneeling to chip san leong

got it

cham cha

hk tradition - must cham cha for the sis first without lai si

then we cham cha for them for lai si hahaha

family picture

traditional pics

mo liu neess

2007-05-22T17:36:00.000+08:00

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving...
But this, in which there is no I or you,
So intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
So intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close

MY CHINESE VERSION
Bu zhi zhong he qi, wo ai sang ni.
Wu ren yao she mo chi qing, wo tou ai ni, wo tou ai ni.
Wo zhi nen zhi yang ai ni.
Zai zhi shi jie sang, ni wo mei fen pie.
Gan jue sang, ni de shou shi wo de shou.
Tang wo shui chao shi hou, ni zhai jin jin de bi shang yan jing.

MODIFIED BY ERIC
bu zhi cong shen me shi hou
fa xian wo ai shang ni
mei you te bie de yuan ying
wo jiu shi ai le ni

Wo zhi neng zhe yang ai ni
bu gu yi qie de dao li
you wo jiu you le ni
yi qie dou shi tian mi

Zai zhe ge shi jie shang
ni wo shi mei hao pei ban
jiu suan wo zhen de shui zhao
ye yao zai ni huai li
zai ni de yi kao

不知从什么时候
发现我爱上你
没有特别的原因
我就是爱了你

我只能这样爱你
不顾一切的道理
有我就有了你
一切都是甜蜜

在这个世界上
你我是美好陪伴
就算我真的睡了
也要在你的怀里
在你的依靠

the garden party

2007-05-21T12:21:00.000+08:00

the beautiful view

the beach

the wedding

the aisle

the alter

first bridesmaid - ms lim lee hooi

2nd bridesmaid - me =)

the third bridesmaid - ms lim lee min

the maid of honor - mary -N

my beautiful sis n dad walking down the aisle for the first time

my dad handing his beautiful daughter over to another man

the ceremony, the vows

the registration of ceremony

newly weds *love is in the air*

the hui's family

the lim's family

the drunkards

the heng tais with the newly weds

the bridesmaids kissing his bald head *haha*

the groom, the bride, the bridesmaids, the bestmans

the bridesmaids & bestmans

the cake

the 3 sisters

we love champagne n we want more

the social time

*happiness falls within ur eyes n ur love for one another*

cutting cake ceremony

*cheers*

the speech

the mc, the brother, the jon hui

we are out *no more drinks for us but we want more*

i just realised i did not post up anything from my sis wedding. so here it is. i have no idea on how to describe it but i hope the pics can tell. its just so beautiful. i believe its all girls dream wedding.

new features on blogspot

2007-05-18T03:01:00.000+08:00

woohoo...there's new features on blogspot. its someething to do with ur templates. where's u can customize ur own template, however by using their basic template. but for me is good enough cos its simple n i still get to customize with my stuff.
so this is my new blogskin. it is not complete. actually its more of a test round. =)

geee...

2007-05-15T09:08:00.000+08:00

its may already. half a year had passed. almost! soon it'll be 2008.
2008 comes.. i have a pretty good plan for it. hopefully, by then i graduated n started working. where? as what? i honestly have no idea.
i cant wait for 2008 to come, but somehow im afraid what lies ahead. i hope whatever i have planned for would actually happened.
i dont know if what i have planned for is right or wrong or even if it gonna be good for me n my family. but on the other hand, i think i really need it and that i really want it. i feel that by doing what i planned to do, i would find myself. i would know what i am capable of and not. despite that, i am afraid that i would fail finding myself n would be very disappoint with myself.
i feel lost. i raelly do. what i dream i would become n who am i now? it is very different. i dunno if i really can be the person i want to be. who i am right now, is really someone i dun wanna be. its not that i don't like everything about myself right now, but certain stuff. but no one is perfect, i dunno if the person i wanna be is too perfect for me to be. i really dunno. im just so so lost.
im trying right now to just be comfortable with everything. n it feels so hard.

metro gala night

2007-05-01T01:15:00.000+08:00

few words needed to describe the nite. really sour wine. boring nite. n loads of pics nite. till we headed ourselves to poppy.

there are tons of pics but ill jus upload a few where i look hot. =)probably not a few. i know there are more pics of poppy than at the gala...that jus shows i had more fun at poppy than gala.

anniversary

2007-04-22T12:21:00.000+08:00

its my 5th anniversary. for those who knows me. its my 5 yrs anniversary n not 5 months. this anniversary, i learn a lot. i grew older from it n became much more mature from this relationship as well. this guy has taught me a lot, been there for me n watch me grow up. i believe we have reach to the point where no one can affect us or even take one of us away.
it is sometimes scary to know that "oh my god...am i really gonna spend the rest of my life with this guy, am i wasting my time" i sometimes wonder this to myself. i realise i may not spend the rest of my life with this guy eventhough i would love to but i am definitely not wasting my time.
he is someone i really fall for a lot, gave my heart without thinking that it might just hurt me. he is wonderful. for wat i know, he is the best thing that ever happened to me.

"darling, i love u with all my heart... i really do"

port dickson

2007-04-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

woah...its been years since ive been to port dickson. it was my uncle's company trip so my whole family n malau went. it was really beautiful at night but in the noon, its like so freaking hot n that it can burn ur skin man.

the view from our room was pretty good....at night watching the stars n drinking wine n a smoke. really makes all misery go away. its so nice!! first time to a company annual dinner on a beach, where everyone is in their short n t-shirt n bikinis n best without makeup!! so relaxing. very different concept n a whole great trip.

avillion is really huge...the hotel provide really nice view and service. i had lots of fun. wish i could stay there longer. so anyway, the drama would have to go to my bf. he is so silly. so we were at the adult pool in the night swimming. so, we had kids there as well..so we sort of played "catching" and it got bored. so my mum decided to held a race. so we had competition without goggles n my poor bf reached first n hit his nose really bad!! =( poor boy...he was so worried, so was i..till we decided to go to the hosp to give it a check. sigh...poor boy

maison

2007-04-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

finally seen lilian after like about more than 1 month!
went to maison...it was boring at the start but when the alcohol kicks in. everyone was jus in their yippee world. love the feeling of it. had lots of fun there. although there's only 3 girls left that i can club with =). but it still fun, cos lilian is back in the market!

first post of year 2007

2007-04-12T20:31:00.000+08:00

its the first post of year 2007, my last post was i guess... august last year.
im having mid term break now. so ive been practically pigging at home for the last few days, i watch the whole season1 of nip/tuck in like 3 days. nip/tuck is really a disturbingly perfect drama. u should see the way they does surgery on their nose. the breast. doing lipo. oh my godd....i can never look at the screen when it comes to their surgery. but, the drama is pretty good. wonder wat's season2 is like. i need to start watching HEROES. everyone is giving good comments about it.

recently, my fren told me another series shows called WEEDS was good. god...need to be looking around for the DVD. hopefully is out!!

i went to F1 last week!! it was REAL HOT. but i had to accompany my bf to go. i missed the starting grid. arghhhhhhh!!! plus my seat best view was the starting GRID... ish!! the whole race was quite boring. because of the people we went with. they were no fun. =). again, this year i wanted to buy the BMW shirt. but turn out i din buy...but its ugly now....cause alll their shirt have a real big PETRONAS word in the middle. McLaren was nice....but din have the time to look around.

anyway, i have to bathe and get ready soon... me going to MAISON!! yeahhh....alcohol!! i'll post up about my sis wedding when i have more time n i have more pics alright. although its like now 268 pics.

its been a long time

2006-08-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

this is a total random post. besides saying thank u to my beloved frens
thanks hui shan for the post n suzz loving u all always...although u foo hui shan din stay n u called urself a fren hehe anyways, thanks to everyone who was there. also thank u brian tsang for the e-card. jus receive it. glad that we still keep in touch.

i jus realised trying to be someone ppl expect u too n u expect urself too its really tough. satisfying everyone needs at the same time its real tough. have i done my best thru out my life or have i not? have i give my best to the society?? have we ever really thought about it. sigh

its been really long time since i post. honestly i even forgotten when i last post. n what happened for the past few weeks....i guess basically is about college started. my uncle seng's bday. thats all i guess. i got an i-dog weee....i so happy....its so cute!! its good for ppl lazy like me. i guess if it was a real dog...it will be dead by now! hahahahah ok i have to do my marketing research plan. promise will update more often

bad day

2006-07-12T17:32:00.000+08:00

sigh...i feel extremely sad today. its been so long since i felt this way. my results came out today, its like shit man i got one HD, two C and one X. i failed one paper. arghh....this sucks!! it hit me really bad this time, cos i have not failed for a long time and its my first time failing in my UNI life. sobs.
woke up extremely early to go college to see if i could appeal or maybe take a supplementary paper, after minutes i was jus again disappointed because if there's a supplementary paper for the subject, there is no way u can appeal! thus, im left with taking the paper again next wednesday!

this really hit me bad. again i know i maybe a stronger person because of this. but i really feel like crying, i feel like i have fall badly when i so want to jus be on the top. i don need HD's or D's to make my day. i jus dont want to fail. i jus don want to be sad anymore. sigh...

i know so well that its no point of me feeling like that, but to actually get up n do something about it. but i cant, it pulls me down each time i try to get up n do something about it. im scared. im scared if i were to get up once again, ill fail again!! i wont be able to take it. im damn scared!

happy birthday SPASTIC

2006-07-12T02:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPASTIC!! LOOK AT HER!!

no matter how spastic u are..ill always love you!! and i did remember ur birthday but forgot about it when i finally realise my results are out!! i love u n i miss u so damn much ...
anyway, happy birthday!! may all ur wish come true n may this year brings u lots of happiness, love n care!! *muaks* hugs*

u look so spasticly cute in this picture man!! hahah

italy won!!!

2006-07-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

yeah totti....*muaks*muaks*muaks*
look at mr. totti kissing the world cup *MUAKS*
yeah the world cup is for italy man!! hugs

y u guys din take off ur shirts?? it'll be so hoT!

FINALSS

2006-07-10T22:22:00.000+08:00

watching the match at slippery senorita's at curve
bored sialll
playing HEART ATTACK!!
listening to dwayne sing teddy gieger - for u i will

we were there damn early....i was there like at 11.something oh my god...we waited so long n patiently for the game man!! hehehe but it was all worth it man....worth it!! hhahaha

GENTING!!

2006-07-06T15:12:00.000+08:00

arrival to outdoor theme park!!woo..lining up for malaysia's first rollercoaster

walking to dunno where. din know i look so hot from the back
and front too...heheh shan still could pose man
with my fierce babe
waiting.......me n jesh fighting for nard hahaa wat a gay man u jesh
sitting on the flying coaster...opps smelly coaster i mean haha
i was injured sobss...nard carrying me!!
geetting ready for mahjong!! one shot first before we lose moneey
mahjong,....mahjong...mahjong!! MAHJONG!!
we're getting ready to go out to watch the match
being carried out!! so nice!!! jus got our face painted...weee checking out nice or not!!

waiting for the match to start!!
damn long man the match start!!

went up genting yesterday it was so much fun!! went up genting with lilian, liann, shan n the guys! while my bf jus left to pattaya hehe its been such a long time since i met nard n jesh!! god...i miss them so damn much!!...
genting was not cold in the noon at all...but at night was pretty cold!! hehe we watch the italy's match!!! my mr. totti!! they won!! hehe watch the match at the arena of stars!! they got huge screen!! italy was like woahh....last min score man!! 2 goals somemore!! who can beat that??heheh
din had much sleep...so i actually slept for 19 hours today hahahahah PIG i know...wanted to beat record 20 hours but my body was killing me!!

cant wait for our next trip...but lets extend the days....its too tiring for a day trip!! hehehe
more pics go to http://lilian86.multiply.com/ and http://liannyly.multiply.com/

england vs portugal

2006-07-02T05:46:00.000+08:00

vs

england vs portugal!!...damn the portugal man!!! i hate ronaldo...although he is good looking but nooo...he is such a wussy, damn keh po...make my ugly rooney went out!! idiot!!! damn angry lor!! and the FIGO GIGO should be out lor...he knock someone's head during the holand match!! asshole!! portugal got so many ugly ppl man...maniche!!! *bluek*
i hate portugal!! anyway, lets bring the emotions aside..the moment beckham was out there goes the hope for england n worst still when rooney had a red card...so this shows england was on the disadvantage side. portugal jus won because they had more advantage..if becks n rooney was still on field...they are so gonna kena trash man!! hahahaha
it was a damn chi kek match man!!...i sit until my backside also pain...watched this match at the curve with lilian die hard fan of portugal that sits beside me n shan which are fans of the england....then after that match went to have ocean, since portugal won!! and then came brazil and they lost to france although cant blame france cos brazil really played a lousy game. but i still hate HENRY...if its not for his goal, brazil still had chance!! damn HENRY!!

foot ball make ppl have lots of emotions man!!! n make me feel like a MAN....sighh

7ate9

2006-06-24T02:18:00.000+08:00

wee....exams are over!! actually mine over damn long ago...jus had to wait for my 2 lovely birds!!if not no one to party with me...=( we went 7ate9 today.....drove shan's car!! wasnt sure of the way actually but what can i say women's instinct are usually 99% correct lor!! by the time i realise i was lost i was actually right in front of 7ate9 hahahah so silly...

we reach there, it was jus the only 3 of us...in such a big white sofa!!oh my..quite the menarik perhatian orang lain!!hahahah but later on ming wei they all came to join!! ehhehe had a wonderful time that night...we drank wine!! =) so happy!! i love winee....yum yum!! pics is not with me...with yong li lian

suzz is gone!!

2006-06-20T01:25:00.000+08:00

my chi bai babe....my goossip queen!!
she is gone..nooo...my mahjong kaki!!eheheheh gonna miss you lots man!!! by the way take care and study hard alright.. see u in DECEMBER man!! muaks

happy birthday feirce YLL

2006-06-16T21:40:00.000+08:00

hahah she is real fierce man!! trust me!! surprise her with shan n suzz at her place the night before!! hehe she was shcoked man...her reaction damn funny hahahahah she fell onto her bed!! hhaha then we chatted while waited for my bf to come pick me up...after the ENGLAND match...sighh...its been a while since we 4 hang out!!!happyyy...

then jus now we went to red box...although i had terrible cough...i still had to layan my tai ka che!! its her bday...she is bigger than anything!! hahahah hope she had fun!!! happy birthday girl...*muaks* hope u stay a bimbo forever

you're so "lilian" man

haatyai trip

2006-06-11T16:29:00.000+08:00

i have a paper in like 3 days time and i actually went haatyai with my family!! i think im about to fail my paper...oh my!!! however, the first day i reach there it was the first day of world cup!! forgotten wat match it was! its like my first time watching a football match finish... ehehe it was pretty interesting!! somehow i now understand why guys like to watch football!!

haatyai trip was nothing but jus EAT EAT EAT SHOP SHOP SHOP BRA BRA BRA & UNDErWEAR!! hahah MASSAGEEE toooo!! hahaah thats all there is to do in haatyai!! the bra's are damn cheap...the food is damn good...the massage is oh my god!!!

had lotsa a fun...got to study now...3 days left to my first paper!! arghh!! paniccc

baby's birthday

2006-06-05T20:01:00.000+08:00

its my darling's bday!! he is 23 this year!! i gave him a surprise party...i dun think it jadi a surprise party lor...and best thing is he was late sigh...

but im glad that i had my gfrens to comeover n help me to get the party ready!! making disgusting sushi with me!! hahah i hope he enjoyed the day man...

last but not least happy birthday darling...i love u more and more each day!!

words

2006-06-01T23:51:00.000+08:00

hmm....Word of mouth is somehow one of the strongest element in advertising...
as well as in someone's life... has anybody REALISE that talking bad about someone, making rumours, or wat so ever...can bring someone down!! despite how strong one person is.????????? ok everyone does talk bad about another person or so.. but spreading it...hmmm no no no good lor!!

anyway, was jus wondering wat is the true definition of a SLUT or a BITCH?? based on collins dictionary, slut means a dirty, untidy woman or one considered to be immoral and a bitch is means someone behaves in a spiteful way.
hmm...immoral on the other hand means the person do not fit in with most ppl's idea of what is right and proper. analyse this. i guess everyone has their bitchy way n slutty way of theirs. so if ur calling someone a bitch or slut, don forget there might be someone calling u the same thing out there.

however, i jus think the worst thing to ever happen to one person is betrayal.....
imagine ur bf plan a gang rape on u...oh my GOD!!.. imagine ur best fren ask ppl to rape u!! haha

the world is full of EMOTIONAL and UNTHOUGHFUL ppl...

weird

2006-05-22T23:07:00.000+08:00

a fren that u think u know well enough to not betray u. finally did. a fren that u tot treated u sincerely. actually did not. a fren that uve cared so much, that was once special to u, that i cherish wat we had most. turn out to hurt me.
i tot this time i will be hurt for losing that someone as a fren. but it was all more to a relieved. that something i have never let go, i finally did. but somehow hearing that someone say such thing can be very hurting.
i maybe really dumb. but my intuition of that someone saying things to hurt me. somehow couldnt convince me that is on purpose. somehow i feel like there is a reason for that someone to do such thing. somehow something that must be done quick.
i never tot i will feel relieved. i tot i will be so devastated. but i tot wrongly, we really grow stronger each time we fall. we learn something each time we are hurt. *so glad n happy everything is over now.*
from this pain, i learn a lot, i learnt that it doesnt mean u treated someone as a fren will treat u back as one. worst still betray u. plus ive learn to let go n not hold on. but im glad that i did nothing wrong to spoil what we had. im glad that i cherish wat we had till the very last sec. n till now, i still cherish everything. and i hope that someone will think the same, n that someone will take care n be happy. my last wishes for this someone is good luck n all the best in ur future undertakings.

random post

2006-05-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

feeling really down right now. things was going on so well in my life suddenly turn upside down! everything seems to be so messy...so complicated. so feel like leaving this world behind me for a moment and come back after feeling all better.

im feeling really lonely but i know im not alone. ive got a lot of things to say, but i cant. ive got a lot of problems to solve, but i dunno where to start. im feeling really stupid, because some idiot is enjoying life out there while leaving me suffer. there's so many things i feel like letting out. i feel like screaming. i feel like killing that someone. i feel like hurting that someone. i feel like hurting that someone the same way as that someone has done to me. but i cant. there is no way that i can in such a love and hate feelings i have inside.

time flies. remembering the times i had so much fun, having real n pure frens. everything around u seems like fairytale, the vision u have ahead seems like a fantasy to be in. i have always been naive and always with the thought that we'll be super close n things will never change btw us. but no, be real, things change as time pass by, nothing stays the same. the vision that u have all jus vanished. but only the past, the memories will keep haunting u. and when everything change around u so fast, u feel like urself hasnt change at all. frens change, some grew further away, some become more reserve, some are fatter n thinner, some are not as sweet anymore, some isnt funny anymore, some calls u lesser, some hurt u, some love u more. its so hard to cope with all the changes.

how someone u don't know well can never hurt u or bring u down. but someone u love as a fren can hurt u so deeply n bring u down so fast. is it my fault, for allowing that someone into my heart n life or its jus an ASSHOLE i should kill. =(

RAJESH MAHESAN

2006-05-17T00:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I KNOW YOU ARE IN EGYPT NOW. JUS WANNA WISH U A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND THAT MAY THIS DAY BRING U LOTS OF LOVE, CARE, HAPPINESS AND LUCKS FOR THE REST OF DAYS IN YEAR 2006!!

and on this day, i wan u to know that ur always love by me, cared by me n i wanna say thank u for being there for me always (no matter where u r). thanks for standing up for me. thanks for helping me up, when i fell down. thanks for making me feel good about myself, when i felt so down. thanks for telling me that im worth it, when i don feel like i am. thanks for jus standing still, when everyone is turning their back on me. thanks for reminding me of how much im worth. thanks for always bringing up my confidence. thanks for listening to me cry. thanks for listening to me complain. thanks for being bitchy with me. last but not least thanks for being honest to me, when everyone is lying.

i owe u so much that i dunno how to repay. althou, we are not that close anymore. but uve done so much for me, that i can never forget.
faster come back lar!! me missing u like crazy!!! me need u more that ever!! me need u to hear me complain, ur support, ur care. me jus need u very very much. pls come back soon!! hahah ok i know its always about me. sorry...

anniversary

2006-04-28T16:06:00.000+08:00

20th and the 21st april is my anniversary with my bf . know that its pretty weird, y there's 2 days but its all cos of our blurness, i think its 20th and he thinks its 21st. so we ended have 2! hahah this yr is our 4th anniversary, but definitely our first time celebrating with one another. for the past 3 yrs, our anniversary, he was in aust. this is our first time and it was definitely a wonderful night spend together.
u cant expect a person like him to be romantic, but somehow his effort of trying is jus so flattering. he cooked for me this time. wee...which really tasted not bad. i wun say GOOD but really its nice and its flattering. after that we went to mandarin oriental, with his colleagues and their gf's again. it was nice to have them celebrating with us, we drank red wine. my favourite. but defintely did not have enough. hehehe but i cant ask for more, if not my bf thinks im alcholic. but i love drinking. y cant he accpet that fact. hahahah but its alright.
he got me a ring for our anniversary, the ring is simple n nice. love it. it was my happiest nights. overall it was a great anniversary

my life

2006-04-28T15:50:00.000+08:00

college started for like 2 months. mid terms exams jus ended and i jus wanna have a relaxing month. but now the next minute, ure awake and back to reality i realised i have a test on tues, which is apparentlt damn tough, im so dead, a finance tutorial question to hand in, and 2 damn assignments to hand in next week and im not started any except for my test nxt tues.. kiasu-ness
so far in college, im sad and lonely..despite all that, i m happy at the same time. i scored quite high for my test. weee i received my CB test 1 results, i got a 24/30...not bad!!im happy...i was quite sad at the start cos that stupid damn lecturer wrote a 14 instead of a 24, thank god i have a wonderful partner that observes everything. i pass finally not only i pass but its quite high though.
then came to my finance mid term paper, the results came out last 2 days and he has been cheering me up till today.. i feel proud of myself n i finally made jesh cant bang n my bf proud of me. but all these i have to thank my bf, jesh and my ex for supporting me and motivating me when i need them most.
other than my college life, ive been a very big hyprocrite. i told myself i will never play DOTA and i ended up addicted to it hahah naughty me. remmebering the past, how much i bang ppl playing dota is so no life n all...but after one time experience with my bf, (the one that taught me play) i finally got addicted to it. not like addicted but love the game. its fun, its the cheapest way to past time too. its jus fun. other than DOTA, definitely my no.1 favourite is always in it. mahjong.. the last time i played was super long ago...cant wait to play soon, but i got test coming up...so after everything.
suzz is coming back this sunday i think... ahhaha another added kaki into the mahjong game and DOTA...which she promise will learn. hahahah thats it

wedding dinner

2006-03-09T18:43:00.000+08:00

attended wedding dinner last sat!!it was woode's wedding, woode is my bf's best fren bro n also my bf's boss!!hehe the dinnner was quite boring at the start, but it was ok towards the end!!guess it due to the alcohol...cos alcohol brings ppl together hahahah
drank preettty a lot that night...everyone was drunk!!!1st to get drunk was definitely andrew hahah *kidding* the bride was really beautiful!!but unfortunately, im not close to the bride...so no pics!!haha the food was good....it was not as bad as other wedding dinner...guess its becos i go all the wedding dinner,the food also suck!!hahah the dinner was held at royal china!!tai thong!!!
this wedding dinner, was a havoc...hehe i actually bought a dress a night before it...damn last min!!n then my bf chose more likely chose the whole outfit for me!!hahahah fussy...i wanted to wear black!!!but cannot...he dun let!!ctrl freak!!hahah

college!!!

2006-03-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

oh my god...metro campus is the worst campus compared to sunway and taylors. the lecture hall looks sigh....the chair is horrible!!!all i know i think the campus looks like a balai bomba!!hahah with the reds everywhere!!however, i still have 2 yrs to be there n still complaining!!!toilets sucks there!!!sigh...but the college is doing some landscaping thing..maybe it will somehow loook better!!!but still looks like balai bomba!!n its so damn HOT in the lect hall!!the air con is always not working!!!
the worst part right now...its my 2nd week of classes tmr!!n i still cant seeem to print my lect notes...cos i dun have my id yet!!i also havent gotten the books...oh no...
thank god my fren saved me!!!i am printing my lect notes now...but its soo soo much!!i think ill jus got to the book shop to buy man!!!...

dooms-day

2006-02-21T03:49:00.000+08:00

my maid lefT!!and staying hmoe sucks!!there's no food!!there's no one to clean the house...and u have to do it!!arghh...ive been having a very hard time!!!pissing me off...plus last few days, there was no water or electricity!!my goodness!!really wish my maid was back and wish i was at my bf's hse!!hahahah

college starting soon!!oh no..gonna be so so lonely...i will know no one there!!sigh!!but i cant wait...cos im getting bored of hols!!getting tired now...and plus i need to finish up my hand made calendar for my darling bf!!

valentines day n the week!

2006-02-19T18:40:00.000+08:00

valentines day finally past. i had my dinner at 10!!sobs...what to do???this is wat u get when ure dating a working men!!heheheh but this yr is not that special anymore!!hehe i guess its because he is not leaving anymore, he is gonna be here for our anniversary,his birthday and my birthday!!so its not special anymore!!hahah but its alright...i jus love him more and more *muaks*

jesh left this day as well also...sighh.....who is gonna fren me??who is gonna be bitchy with me?who is gonna irritate me??who is gonna be there for me??this time dunno how long he is gonna be sailing...but anyway,wish he will be back soon!!

then came andrew...he left on the 15...sigh...my fren from vu is leaving to melb, at such a young age...jus wanna let u know...its been great knwoing u!!

then on fri night!!i went to poppy with my darling n his colleagus...hmmm *speechless* but as long there is my favourite uncle chivas..n my beloved darling...the night will jus be great!!

then came my spastic baby carmen...she left on the sat 18 feb!!!arghhh why must u all leave???didnt get to see her off...i feel so bad!!my darling lar...ishh...sighh!!but i hope she dun blame me!!im gonna miss u a lot girl...cant wait till ur back here too!!

pearly's farewell-de canter too

2006-02-13T03:08:00.000+08:00

pearly farewell...was hell a bad management!!hahah too many ppl who came!!but its nice seeing everyone!!!i had a wonderful night that night!!*enjoyed*friends that i long to see all came!!...pearly iss gone!!oh myy...i hope she had fun that night!!heheh she was definitely drunk...i was pretty high!!!i miss drinking...being high!!having fun with my beloved frens...hahaha seems so nice then!!all worries seems to have gone for the moment!!sighh...then 2 days later!!it was dooms day!!pearly's birthday and also the days she leaves...i hate her for leaving us and leaving so early!!we had to wake up so so early, jus to get to the airport to see her off!!!she definitely cried, shan too ahahah me i think i did....gonna miss her lots though!!its gonna be a yr later then only i can see her again!!... *babe u better be back soon!!im gonna miss u so damn much*

chinese new year!!!

2006-02-06T18:08:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year to all!!!
im back!!i jus came back from bangkok..im missing my darling like crazy!!!sobss...bangkok is shopping heaven man!!hahah got lots of stuff there!!and its so freaking cheap!!hahaha i got a nyumber of t-shirt for college...its only 8rm per piece and we bought lots of earrings hahahah they only cos 8 for rm10...how can u not resist??i even got the things to hang my earrings...hahah so happy....now i can hang my collection of earrings.
i bought a sling bag from there...only one...cause my sis brought back all her unwanted handbags for us oredi!!eheheh i finally got my balenciaga hand bag!!heheh wee wee...
bangkok..we din go much of sight seeing, but we definitely ate a lot!!hahah next time when i get married i would want to go bangkok to buy my house interior stuffs n some furniture...its so cheap there and the design is like way way better compared to kl man. haha guess ihave to marry a rich man!!*hint*hint*
the food in bangkok was great!!!we are non stop!!my goodness....i gain like another 3 kg!!hehe but it was a great trip to be with my family!!
finally, im back...its quite tiring!!hehehe but we still as chinese need to have the chinese tradition of visiting each other homes, collecting angpaus, and gambling...only time in the yr i get to gamble ahah...jus kidding!! my bf had a week of hols...wee he accompanied me every single day..at the start of the week, we visited his frens homes, then at the end only my frens home!!hehehe but as the week gets nearer...its time for pearly to leave!!sobs...anyway, it was a great time!!spending chinese new yearr...its really my first time spending so many days of cny in kl!!hehe

2006

2006-01-13T18:02:00.000+08:00

a new year has begin!!i finally did something good for a start of the new year - is to transfer myself to curtin-U. had to go to that lousy campus sobs...it would definitely be a great change for me!!!i had such a wonderful campus then change to a super lousy one!!anyhow, they only provide the major i want to do -finance &marketing- there! i dun even know if i liked the subjects seriously, i hate acct,econs,management...im ok with marketing n i guess finance!!so left with this 2 lar...i hate businesS!!ishh....i wish i was doing other course!! sobbs

2006, i had quit my sucky job!!haha and became a bum!!!hahaha

2005

2006-01-03T17:52:00.000+08:00

2005..what can i say??did not blog for a long time!!based on my previous post...i did find a job!!but it lasted for 3 weeks only haha...i worked in padini!!haha couldn't even survive there for a month my goodness!!anyway, the job sucks!!it was a good experience, at least nxt time i look for job - part-time job- i would want an office job haha wish i could get!!

then came christmas eve, i had a wonderful time alone with my bf!!hehe we had dinner at san fransisco steak house!!been quite sometime since i had candle light dinner!we had a great time alone!!i love it!

then came new years eve, we had something different this time for dinner. we ate crab. we had dinner at fatty crab!!and when we were leaving!!we witness someone's handbag got rob by a motor cyclist. sigh...wat a sight!!however, we still cannot forget our new years eve plan. so we headed to kajang, weird isnt it???boon's house party!!me n my bf had our count down there and then we left to kl!!!

pictures above is taken during a night out in hartamas, orange with my frens!!!it was a wonderful night, where we could all hang out together!!hehe

finally, 2005 has ended for all of us..i hope we all had memories to look back n not regret one thing we did!!

redbox

2005-12-09T02:22:00.000+08:00

it has been quite sometime since i last visited redbox...finally i did!!!hehe but unfortunately, i was unable to sing my jay chou's songs sobss...cos i din have my lyrics along with me!!this is the caused for not learning how to read chinese when u had the chance to. haha anyway, it has also been sometime since i hang around with girls only...had all of them with me that day...carmen was there too!!althou she kept quiet most of the time...but when u leave her with the camera she comes out with the most amazing pictures haha...i had fun!!but it was definitely tiring...
oh my...i need to go shoppingggggggg.....i need to get my miss selfridge jacket!!im so inlove with it man!!who's gonna get for me??for christmas!!hehe *hint*hint* hahaha thinking of what i need, i really need to look for a job too...if not what am i going to do for another 2 months???plus!!!! damn...thinking of it, i also damn scared...

RESULTS!!

2005-12-05T20:02:00.000+08:00

another semester has gone!!weee.....now i have to think of what to major in!!im so happy...my results are out!!!weee....i have passed hehe is that good??i think its not...but wat the hell!!i passed thats all i know...go on to the next sem and graduate in 2 yrs time hopefully!!hehe must study harder the nxt sem already!!geee
its all good...me want to go out now!!but cannot....be good girl first!!hahah got naughty plans after this!!hahah
anyway, i feel damn good!!!so so happy....i tot i was really gonna fail one paper...but it turn out to be great man!!!got credit instead!!!weee....shit i damn sad now...i got 2pimples growing on my nose!!sighhh sobbss
but its all worth it....alright!!!blog again another day...

im back!!

2005-12-04T22:17:00.000+08:00

wee...im back!!its been a month!!shit my new monitor is big but everything in it seems so tiny and it makes me feel blind...i need to get my glasses so that i can slowly blog..hehe ok im back.. i think my blog skin is getting boring...time to change!!but wait...give me some time!!!
sigh sigh its been a month...and its definitely one hectic month!!haha what can i say???can we beat the OC or wat???or i think we beaten it la...haha anyway,the drama would continue to stay as drama and in our memories..so lets jus talk about the happy things!!!haha
let talk about my exams...did i do it well??i dun think so??everything is so last minute studying...but what i can say...i gave my best shot!!i think im failing one and results be out in like less than 24 hours!!i damn scared...but lets jus get over it once and for all!!heheh
anyway, my exams lasted for 2 weeks and knowing me...i think im alcoholic...even malau thinks so too!!got lots of scolding from him...oopss..anyway had my interval for drinking in btw my exams in oasis...it was real fun!!!althou when we were studying for my first paper...we had beers while studying!!i miss that moment!everything was so pure...anyway,abi was suppose to sing but din sing...but he wanted to when his baby lilian arrived,but din in the end!!i hate abi...his singing is jus wonderful!!!it makes u feel like a baby...really!!but somehow i had my mini tiny fight with mr. navin!!it was fun...seeing him merajuking...but it was my fault!!im sorry....heheh but it was a great night...but malau couldnt make it..sobss
after my exams...i was out to have fun!!!wee...it was suppose to be a fun night..had pohseng,leonard, jesh and my bf at the same time!!pppl i love and cherish most..ok not forgeting mr navin...but no it turn out to be a disaster!!!its called the passion night!!!!!!i hate that night!!!!!i think we all jus want to erase that night from our memories...but nooo...that night all our actions has become many big consequences that we have to face after that man!!!!sigh...now we jus have to be responsible for it!!!if that night did not turn out to be this way...i guess we were all be enjoying each other's company!!!but then again....it happened!!!
after that night..started from that night all the DRAMA started coming out lar!!!!!misunderstandings,conflicts,anger,love,hate,happiness,fights,betrayal....i guess its everything...i hope everything is settled now...but i guess we will have to lose ppl in our lives jus to be right no matter how much u dont want to...its jus isn't the same anymore and we are no longer pure to one another...i miss those times when we are all jus frens,the only thought we had was jus to enjoy each other's company...but i guess its different now!!!i think we all know this...
this whole week...has been quite a good week!!it made me realise who i really am??what i really want in life??and what im really in??good or bad??i guess different individual...different thinking!!!i would have to say...i feel much better right now!!!allthou..along the way we let go of something we dont want and things change...i guess its true nobody likes changes....i wish everything will go back to where is started!!!
anyway,happy things!!!carmen is back!!!for now she is really really BACK Lar....sophia is back too hehe had quite an outing yday!!!its been a long time we girls been hanging out!!!should do it more often k!!hahah had a great laugh at carmen yday...she is jus so spastic sometimes!!hehe love her too much i guess...
ahahah anyway,should stop her...blog again another day

eXXammSSss

2005-11-03T01:52:00.000+08:00

arhhh.....exams are coming!!how much nearer can it be??how stress do i need to be??am i ready??sighh i dun think i am...this sem sucks..i never study!!!such a notty girl!!

i wanna ruin someone's life!!n i hope that person will burn in hell...ahahhaha i would be delighted..mother bitch!!hahah i feel bad but too bad!!muahahahah

went to mont kiara plaza to study today!!cos someone said very very nice to study tehre!!!*ahem* turn out to be alright la...cos we could have beer during happy hour while studying!!power isnt it??ahahah and pearly got high n started acting all weird!!hahah and lilian is a bad influence!!!she is a pro in bad words man!!tiok le ge ku ku ciau hahahah chap lei ge hai hhahahahah

oh no...time to study!!!

angryyy!!!

2005-10-20T00:41:00.000+08:00

im having lots of anger in me..lots of not satisfied feeling in me...i wanna live on my own n do watever i want!and bcos of this i have to graduate as soon as possible n this have motivated me to study hard for my exams!!hehe and ive been not like nav that does unproductive work in lib. one more time by the author: navin manian hahah
i need to smoke. actually i have an urge to smoke all the time. some ppl have labelled me a chain smoker. funny thing is i've been smoking for more than 7 yrs and yet im still healthy(yeah right, look at u nav, u look like a dug addcit, u should go for checkups). So i guess smoking isnt all that bad. actually, back to the main point of this story. i need to smoke right now. but a certain someone from a remote place called puchong is holding me back because this person can't smoke right now. if some ppl are overly sensitive, can i generalise that puchong ppl are selfish(shit u nav, how dare u say i am??too much!!smack u with my marketing book then u know)
moral of the story: smoke DUNHILL!!!
haha im waiting for my letter!!hmmm..navin STUDY!!!althou i want u to fail so much..so i have frens nxt sem but stll..STUDY!!for goodness sake...i do as a fren wanna u to graduate!!althou u do put a bomb in my frenship with other ppl!!...hahah i waanna get out!!!
i miss jesh's bday that night...it was so fun!!eventhou i only knew 3 orang at that moment...i miss all the nights i have fun...all i want is to have fun fun fun n fun...wats wrong with that?

funny story created from a stupid game played

2005-10-17T23:41:00.000+08:00

One hot summer day at my house you see the most
macho body creature you have ever seen. Their name is*******, and every move
he makes just turns you on more and more. You nudge your best friend
******** and say, "Wow, that has to be the most
nice muscular body I have ever seen." Suddenly,
he looks in your direction and starts walking right towards you!!!
he says, "I noticed you staring at me from over there. I just had to tell you, that I think you are so
helpful , and was wondering if you'd like to go to
his house with me andsex ?" With a stupid smile on your face you say, "dog face " and go with them. When you finally get to his house , he moves closer to you, and gives you the biggest kiss ever. The two of you are passionately kissing, when you feel a dog hit you on the back of the head. You open your eyes to find out it's all a dream, but there is a note left next to your bed

go to http://www.blogger.com/

the fat BITCH haha

2005-10-17T23:10:00.000+08:00

today is boring...went to college, felt tired but still went to my darling's hse to get my pencil box!!which made me panic yesterday n made me thought i actually left my pencil box in oasis. haha got bang because i ask someone that, saying im weird n spastic that i bring my pencil box everywhere. i was in my bf's hse studying before that ok.
oasis on saturday was great...everyone had fun!!i was quite pissed off towards the end!!due to somethings but anyway, lets forget it!!we'll all out to have fun...so??but anyway i had a funny conversation with carmen!!this shows how spastic she can be sometime. here it goes

leeling: oh my god...i cant stand it man...she is damn too much.
carmen: yeah man..what a b****??haha
leeling: she is one man...a big one!!!anyway, apparently i heard she dun get along well with girls on E?
carmen: what are u saying man leeling??what is this???what have u been doing??what happen to u??what on E?
leeling: haha chill girl...its 'apparently i heard she dun get along well with girls one!!
carmen: oh my god...i tot u guys were on E man!!hahahahaha
leeling:hahahahahh

she's so silly isnt it??but today was worst. pearly n lilian was all excited about langkawi till they actually wrote a girls marketing plan. haha u should hear them man

pearly: eh how lar my hair??is gona be damn dryyyy
lilian: *said something too softly couldnt hear*
leeling: *reading her marketing text book*
pearly: sunblock!!maggi mee!!apple!!comb!!
lilian:wrote down
leeling: still reading her book
lilian: eh i got no slippers how??
leeling: i got i borrow u mine
pearly: whats ur size??
lilian: 4-5
pearly: u can take my mom's!!but my mum got no flippers
lilian & leeling: *looked at her with eyes big*
lilian: isnt flippers for diving?
pearly: oopss sorry flip flops
.....
pearly is a gangster ok!!she say if we got nothing to do n we're bored we can go wack someone...fuiyoh becoming chyna oredi!!hahahaha sillyness
thats all...

short story by NAVIN MANIAN

2005-10-14T03:56:00.000+08:00

i got a stupid assignment to do now and hand in tmr but im feeling so damn lazy...so ill probably do it tmr n hand in tmr!!haha but oh no...what about turnitin??sighh...hopefully there is still receipt tmr so that my assignment will be complete...after this i have a major problem on the assignment oh no!!die!!hehe but take one step at a time...whatever it is..i feel great today!!i did soemthing productive!!i went to the lib and study better than some ppl who claims themselves to be prof. navin phd. bsc.222.xxx haha n he is so not productive that he wrote a stupid n lame short story but funy how he can come out with something so dumb
here it goes
once upon a time, there was this boy wearing a slightly distorted cap in the library. as he was wondering around aimlessly in this foreign land (the library), he stumbled across a rather odd looknig greenish jacket (its mine). this jacket was unattended to and the boy noticed many pairs of wicked eyes gazing wantingly towards this odd jacket. somehow the boy felt that he should guard this jacket until its rightful returned. he waited and he waited and then tragically he awed. the end
morel of the story: do no hang in the library
how dumb man the story??hahahaha

assignments!!exams!!running out of clothes

2005-10-13T01:59:00.000+08:00

exams are coming soon...less than a month!!ive not started studying...sort of did since i needed to do it for my mid terms!!sighh...i cant wait till exams are over!!i think im gonna fail this sem!!i never go lectures, and not really for tutorials...i dun pay attention in class!!i hate this sem!!it must be becos of navin and rishi that are bad influence and also hui shan ill mention hahaha she never go class,she is always at home!!!hahaha lets not talk about studies man!!
sighh...what have i done for the past whole month??actually nothing much really...i hardly go out!!if i do..it'll be with my wonderful boyfren or not jus yum cha with the girlss!!u know what??i cant wait for rajesh to be back!!rajesh if ur reading thiss...dun misunderstand!!at this moment of frustration, i would love that u will irritate me!!hahah
i got 2 assignments to hand in..its jus something small so its ok!!hahah 600 words..i think i can do it!!hand in on friday thou...last min person!!n one nxt week wednesday...i think thats about 1000 words...i think i might able to manage...ahahah hopefully!!!oh my godd...
i cant wait to go holidays...jus relaxing n getting high!!!i need liquor with redbull...sounds familiar!!hahahah but i guess it was a time this yr i actually had lots n lots of fun!!!ahahah those bunch of adults do not act like one!!i guess that is why its fun...i hope to experience another one!!
chinese new year coming...yeah new clothes!!i wanna shop!!i dunno what to buy!!!but i realise i have boringg tops!!serious...i run out of sexy clothes...i run out of nice formal clothings...ive got too many college wear!!hahaha and i badly need a sling bag..a black one will be great
oh my god i cant wait till end of this month then ill be getting my balenciaga bag!!woohoo...cant wait!!ive been loving that bag ever since my sis has it...she has 3 different colours of it and each its like rm3500 i guess...althou its second hand from her!!hey, its good enough thou...i like it!!!ok!!
oh my god...im fat!!thats what i thought until i realise i could still fit in my tailored made jeans hahaha...happiness!...so i guess i still can gain weight
yeah yeah...this fri ill be eating fatty crab yummy...never go eat crab with carmen...she sucks in it hahaha

random PICS

2005-09-15T16:41:00.000+08:00

random pictures...from my birthday, carmen's farewell, merdeka's eve as well!!

life??

2005-09-14T02:00:00.000+08:00

im back...sighh ive got hell lots of assignment to hand in next week!!but feeling really down now!!so felt like blogging!!im currently listening to edge of fire - whole again. its a real good song!
time past by real fast, not knowing we are already in our 19s coming to 20. as we look back, there's lots to laugh at and cry for! along the road, we meet different ppl from different places or even having different views from ours. how we take them in our lives n thought of spending the rest of our lives with them..its jus amazing!!but only these people that are the closest to u n the one u love most, hurt u the deepest.why??is it bcos they're the closest to our hearts?
it is difficult to be in the position of hate n love. someone in my life, taught me a lesson of trust, love, betrayal n showed me that the phrase "what comes around, goes around" is true and forgiving is the best revenge. some even taught me what true friends are like. but some left, without looking behind. some stayed, to continue love me no matter what.
years passed, have we all became stronger from the past?have we all grow to think maturely?the question is do we really know ourselves?do we really know the people around us?can we trust them?are they really true?are they hiding things?patience is virtue. the truth is out there?is the truth really out there?do we seek for it, or it'll jus naturally comes!

whats worst than murder, rape, lie, robbery, molestation, abuse?

the grand AUGUST

2005-09-02T22:55:00.000+08:00

opps...its been a long time since i blogged!!i think it should be a month!!anyways..ill make sure i dun miss it out anything..
was pretty busy the past month...since my boyfriend started working!!we seem to have drifted apart that cos he is too busy with work and that he has no time for the relationship sobz, so he was working really hard to make some time for me!!he promised me 1 week once we will go for a date hahaha..

1st august
POH SENG's birthday!!happy birthday uncle seng...he is amazingly 25 already!!damn old man right...haha wat to do!!!!haha wat else???although i gave him an ashtray...not very nice not very expensive either...really had no idea what to get him!!i know he needs a cupboard but i doubt i can afford one haah anyway, hopes he likes it n hope he doesn't smoke so much la!!heheh

4th august
vimal's birthday...my classmates birthday!!happy 19th birthday!!he had a party in bar savanh but i couldnt make it cos i was in darulsallam with pearly n ting lih heehh plus i din feel like going..knew that he was dead drunk thou..this day carmen called me as well ehhe we gossip again told her all the 5 pearly bad habits like for example eating pei sze hahaha

12 august
liang heng's birthday...happy birthday liang heng!!study hard ar!!he had a party at zouk!!it was dj tall paul..apparently was likegood as he is playing for the pd rave...i find it jus "ok" la!!hahah really din have to mood to go but had to anyways...i was so bored there till i could read magazine!!heheh shan cried!!pearly ahhaha i wonder what happen!!*hint*hint* u dun wanna me announce hor!!before that i had dinner at nikko hotel!!japanese *yummy* hmm...making me hungry now!!damn i missed eating japanese food ehehh...so anyways, after dinner my dad drop me there!!gosh it was pretty long to wait for the whole world to come!!but anyways, i had fun in some way...heheh but wats more important is that the birthday boy had more fun!!happy birthday once again

19 august
my birthday...hmmm what happen??oh in the noon we went redbox!!it was fun..girls when is our nxt visit!??they all be singing..where else pearly will be backup singing...its damn funny. her backup singing is all out of tune...but her dance its not too bad!!till she realise there is actually camera in the room she stoppedd...ahahah damn bodos!!but anyway, we had fun!!went home then came out to have dinner with my family and my boyfren!!we had fatty crabb *yumm* i feel like eating it now again!shit...im getting fatter..actually i am fatter!!yup yup i got tummy already!!haha my boyfriend came late for dinner again...as usual he is the "king of all d not so punctual guy"!!after that we head to decanter for drinking!!they wanted to get me drunk hahah but it did not work but worst still they open up my bra jus for revenge cos i always pinch their breast hahah but nvm had great fun!!thanks to everyone that camE and the rest that did not come can go die!!chin got drunk before for me...poor chin!!heheh anyways,thanks for the night girls!!i love the present alot a lot...

30 august
as usual..merdeka's eve!!we went to cristro's..it was really boring at the start,and here comes the hero of my heart to save the day. my darling!!hehe he 'tui' lilian n pearly n ended tired n pretty drunk hahaha so he ended up sleping in the car. pearly was drunk as well!!hahah ooo...something was going on at those bushes ahahha andrew n the rest drank n played card games. navin came late n he was high!!rishi was blind n the rest was cool!!sighh...and we the four of us or maybe 6 with 2 drunkards had to finish a bottle of chivas!!its crazy!!so it all ended up, everyone was fine!!it was an amazing night..

college started!!

2005-07-30T00:02:00.000+08:00

its been a long 2 weeks man!!college has started weee not so boring...but its only lecture for the first week so i end up having like long hours of break not knowing what to do *sobs* but anyway, my class is from mon to thurs only wee...im so happy man!!ive been trying to get used to my timing back again...after all the hols n late outings!!i have to get back to the normal coll girl sobss

i cant remember much what i did for the past 2 weeks...but last fri was my daddy's birthday!!he is oredi 53!!oh my god...had dinner with my family n my uncle n my darling as well!!thats weird, but glad that my parents love him...after that was a night out in cristro's with my darling (i guess) n his cousin n his cousin's frens...it was basically my darling's cousin's bf birthday...same day as my daddy!!hmmmpphh...i know i was drunk...damn DEAD drunk!!thanks to pearly...i have to blame u!!hahahah but sorry to her as well...anyway i had fun!!felt great in a way n heartache in a way...cos my bf dun care hahah....

after that night...it was all normal, as usual...out with darling!!help him do this do that...yday went to decanter for a short while with him n my frens...hehehe navin n the rest lar!!we played the game!!...rishi is super blur...if u wanna him to drink make sure u r the thumb master, he is so BLUR man!!!it was all good, my darling took over rishi's place when he started playing...my blur darling *muaks* thats why he is adorable...

lets see...what can i say about today??suppose to go dating with my bf but cannnot cos he has some job stuff to do *sobss* but he ask me to follow him!!hahah so we had to go to "masjid jambek" for his medical checkup thingy...n he has no idea where it is...so he din drive n we took LRT there *wee* it was fun right with lots of smelly ppl, but as long im with him n we're doing soemthing different!!its all good then...its my 2nd time taking LRT...wat spoil brat!!hahah but i bet there's ppl out there not been in one!!hahah it was all good...althou tiring!!love u darling to bits!!

results!!!shit

2005-07-18T04:42:00.000+08:00

ahahahahah got back my results...yeah!!its so much fear to actually key in ur id then password n click click the thing to see the results popped out in front of ur eyes...but the amazing thing is when results was out...ppl who use streamyx couldn't check...i was checking for all them...but finally got the guts to check mine...although its not that good but its alright...for i jus hope to pass heehhe...i got 1d, 2c n 1p hahahahah i tot ill fail a paper!!but i din hahah 5 more semesters to go...hopefully!!then ill be out working eee...what the??but its all part of life isnt it??where u study a 1/4 of ur life n then u work 2/4 or maybe 1/4 (if im i can earn so much money at such a short period hahaha) of ur life like shit!!!then u enjoy for the rest....sitting down on the rocking chair looking at ur child grow (if i have one) or maybe touring around the world...ahhahaha that is nice!!thats jus all part of life...where u work for money money money!!hahah

im happy with my results!!heheh for that im going drinking this fri...weee long time havent deee...its all good!!this time drinking wine...good for health but before that must accompany my dad!!his bday!!hahahah then after that dun care...to the curve we go!!if its too late...i guess we got to head for one of the clubs dee...i dun care although most of them are starting class dee...but hello its the first week man!!!hmmphh..

sighh...carmen left for a whilee...miss her spasticness!!faster come back...u must hear pearly crazy stuff that she does!!she is kuku in her brains man!!hehehe

now its the stressing part...get into monash do marketing n management or stay in this vu for marketing/international trade...which is the best??combination??heheh someone out there pls advice...although still have 1/2 a yr to go to decide!!ehehehh sighhh but must think one ma!!anyway leave it as it is first lar....but advice pls!!at least i have a goal infront of me....anyway, nothing much to blog...ive been eating damn a lot!!till then coll starts!!i feel like going shopping!!but damn no cash!!hehehe

feelings deep down inside

2005-07-14T02:23:00.000+08:00

i dunno how long more will i have to keep up to u. i dunno how much do i have to give in. i dunno how i can never find to courage to stand up to u. i no longer know where my dignity has gone when im in front of u. i dunno where is that feeling that u used to have. i dunno if ur still afraid if im gone. i dunno what happen. i dunno wat to say. i dunno wat to do. i dunno what is right. i dunno what is wrong.

all i know is i love u. i know u love me. i know u have give in to me. i know u have lost ur dignity. i know u r feeling insecure. i know u have keep up to me for a long time. i know i know.

the wonderful night in crowne

2005-07-13T05:51:00.000+08:00

woahh...its been sometimes since i blogged...hmm lets see where should i start!!my bf is back!!everything is going well..i guess!!every relationship has its up n downs isnt it??im glad that he is back here!!first week din go very well for us...but now its been great!!

carmen lefT!!sobss...she has finally made her choice to leave her wonderful frens for the sheep n cows that doesnt even know if she is being spastic or smart!!hahah she is spastic...she fractured her middle toe, how can a normal person be able to do it??heeheh we spend lots of time with her i guess....stayed in a hotel in kl with her...suppose to be drinking all night long...but end up only me n pearly drinkign all night long n carmen ditch us..n shan is always missing in actions hahahah after that night we went curve to have some girly girly outing ahahha i think it was more of gossiping ahhahah then decanter for her last night in kl...i came late...but it was all good...i think it was really fun!!n the best part was fui yu giving us money hahahah not me but malau...i think it was real fun cos i have everyone that i love there...i was waiting for this day for so long...after that was the airport...sighh!!it was hard...seeing her making the wrong decision...but we had support her anyhow!!hahahahah anyway, jus gonna miss her lots n lotss...

i miss college..i cant wait for college!!im getting all bored for hoidays dee!!oh my god!!!!im so cofused now actually...i guess i will have to blog when i am no longer confused anymore...

party!!!

2005-06-25T10:58:00.000+08:00

exams are over!!!!!!yeahhhh weeeeee !!its party time!!hahah went to loft yday!!it was all good!!had lots of fun...hahah the happy thing was that most of the ppl i want them to be there is there....and seeing my frens having a good time with my other frens...its really nice feeling!!them getting along n having fun!!i went there with hui shan, pearly n liang heng!!we reach there the earliest...oh my god!!me n my punctuality ahahah im not always like that!!my classmates n the rest came slightly later....open like 4 bottles to drink!!aiks...it was pretty cheap, as nicole knows the manager there!!yeah...although its exepnsive, u cant think about it man...its all about having fun!!n its once in a while!!heheh

carmen came late!!she came when i was pretty high...hahah n then we sat n talk n take pics...like we always do...gonna miss her lots n lots!!she cut her hair!!!she got FRINGE ahhaha damn funny!!cute though..sthing different!!cant wait to actually have sometime to actually be able to talk to her again one on one!!ehehe i love her gossips n spasticsm ahhaha met poh seng's fren there!!hehehehh i guess that club is all uncle's man!!even my sister's frens ex shi jin was there!!sighhh....
it was all a good night...i had fun!!lots of fun!!!exams are over!!so fast 1 sem gone jus like that...so fast half a yr jus passed n we're soon going to be looking in to yr 2006 n then wonder what will happen!!sighhh...and its soon another 3 more days my darling coming back!!!really miss him a lot...he is although no matter what the most important person to me!!cant wait till he is back...cant wait to spend time with him...n lead a whole new diff life...ahahahh

oh yeah...i wanted to share this poem that i think its really very very sweet...pppl who had watch the movie patch adams..then they'll know

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,I love you simply, without problems or pride:I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving...

But this, in which there is no I or you,So intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,So intimate that when your eyes close i fall asleep

uluness of lim lee ling

2005-06-20T09:05:00.000+08:00

i finally realise that there's a place in hartamas that u can drink at cheap prices...its decanter!!heheh went there last fri with shan n carmen n the rest of the dj girls...i think we had like hmm 6 jugs of beer n we are playing silly card games!!..it was great to see carmen n fui yu once again!!..to me i think i see fui yu more often around in kl than my own bf...he comes back real often!!hehehe i was suppose to come home like before 12, but then the temptation is there...i couldn't resist it!!sighh...so i left at 12...it was pretty early!!hahha but after all the drinking i had to study once agian!!...this fri last paper!!i ccannot wait!!but all i hope is that to have pass all my papers...
3 papers down n one more to go!!i cant wait!!!hehe i cant wait to go partying n drinking man!!!hopefully ill pass all my papers..not really in the mood to blog...feeling more of wanting to talk to someone!!...missing him lots

singapore=shopping!!!!!

2005-06-13T22:28:00.000+08:00

im BACK...heheh its been a long time since i blog...i have to blog fast i only have 17 min to do so then i have to get back and study!holidays started for me already sighh...but exams is coming in like 2days...all i wanna do is jus pass!!hoping to score though!!heheh

i went spore last last week!!its SHOPPINGGGG....i went there for 4 days and 3 nights....its all good i get to buy things i want...not really everything lar, cos my dad aint a millionaire ma!!heheh but the topshop stuff there is CHEAP man..wanted to get my burberry wallet there...its cheaper by 200 but my mum looked and me n said..u sure?its really expensive u know!!!i guess she is jus trying to say in a nicer way ...no u cant buy hahah i bought a jeans, a pants and 3 tops how sad??ehhehe but oklar not too bad lar!!could have bought more!!but seriously my leg was stingy pain man!!ehehehh jus because of a mng jeans i have to go to 5 different shopping centre to look for it...gave all kind of excuses no size lar, dun have lar!!sigh....bought a madagascar penguin for rajesh...my dad was like hello, isnt he old enough my mum was like errr isnt he a guy??heheheh damn funny la!!rajesh is just a big small kid...

came back from spore...it was so HECTIC, i had to study like mad!!!like what im doing all the time for the past few days!!i feel so boring!!but im really stress!!!sighh...came back was quite busy with studying n had to meet up rajesh before he goes back for sailing!!how sad??no one else to listen to my uninteresting stories!!hahah but its all good cos he might come back with green tea kit kat....yayyyyy!!!

i am really stress for the past few days...last friday i jus had to dragged pearly n shan to go out for a drink with me hahah...cos carmen asked me to go out!!thank god she asked man!!if not ill be at home like an idiot!!hehehe i went out feeling guilty but i need to release stress also mar!!!...eheheh

now everyone is done with EXAMS except for me!!sighh...im so sad!!carmen somemore leaving on july 8th so soon....sobs!!!no one to gossip n no one to act spastic in front of me heheh...pearly n shan will be out partying without me!!but i bet it wont be fun!!cos i aint there hahahahahahhahahah "ppl wait for me!!!im coming ok!!!"
i miss malau...its been really long since we talked...although yeah we talked like last fri!!but before i went spore it was his bday n we din even talk n i had to leave ady!!...during spore he din talk to me...so it was pretty long tat we've not talk to each other!!i cant wait...for him to come back!!!seriously!!!the feeling make me feels very intense!!hehehh but its all good!!still surviving!!hopefully he will be coming back soon...really missing him lots n lots...muaks

guess i have to stop here now...there so many things more i wanna blog...about how silly n helpFUL n wonderFUL pearly is to help me out today n how wonderFUL n ignorant hui shan is??ehehehheehehheheh and how nice it is to catch up with carmen after so long being busy with our hectic lives *be strong girl* i wanna say how much i miss my bf...how i long for him to be here n happy!! i also wanna complain so much about how stress i am!!!aghhhh....about what i found out last min!!but thank god pearly helped...sighh....im so so STRESS n i need him so much here!!

sick....

2005-06-02T12:54:00.000+08:00

im very very sick today!!!sobss sobbss...i slept yday at 5 something after talking to my beloved darling!!i want him to know that the day he still needs my love, care, support and me myself...i will give it to him!!muakss although right now im so sick i got cough, sorethroat, flu and fever and he has no time to really concern about me...but i know he does somehow...sighh what a positive way of thinking!!but by all means he is busy studying ma...cant blame him!!!

i got new aunty glasses...fuiyoh!!!those plastic frame...hahah anyway nothing can beat my big pimple on my FACE!!!arghhhhh sigh sigh...but nothing can beat my laziness overcoming my mood to study!!ive not studied for one week!!help!!im going to die!!im so so dead!anyway, im very sick today, i feel like dying!!sighh

madagascar!!!!

2005-05-29T10:50:00.000+08:00

madagascar was so GOODDD...eheheh *i like the way u move it , move it* i love it so much!! i dun mind watching the show again!!hehe nice!!!it was suppose to be like 6 ppl watching, but ended up like 11 of us!!...oh my GOD...nxt time i wun call dee!!hahaha n i was late for the movie...actually all of us were late lar!!!sighh!!!cos the tics were with us!!!...we were late bcos stupid liang heng forget to fetch evelyn...so we had to go thru the jammed n everything jus to get her...so near, but yet so far!!it was my first time watching in summit...cool la...ehehh n cHEAP man!!!rm 5 only!!for those with student card!!heheeh

after the show...we went eat steamboat in puchong...heheh its so cute that no one knows how to go...so they all had to follow my car...n its like 4 cars following me...its like chu chu train eheheh...n when it comes to parking everyone jus park side by side...its jus so lovely!!sighh we ate like damn a lot lar....i had my meatballs!!but nothing can beat when i ate it with my darling...that was really full man!!ehehhe miss his company alot...cant wait for him to be back!!

i really miss him a lott...the feeling is undesribable..the feeling of wanting so much!! i really dunno how long more will we last??but i will jus wanna do my best...work it out...save the rship no matter how difficult it is...muaks dunno y!!

after dinner we all went back home!!...eheheh hugss...it was a great day!!ehheheh no mood dee...today sighh jus thinking of the assignments n test that r coming up!!sighh

long distance...

2005-05-25T11:32:00.000+08:00

arhhhhh....long distance sucks!!when can i see him again!??? i cant study!! i miss him...im so lazy!!im thinking of shopping, thinking of everything except studying...arghhhh im gonna die!!sobss i ve been skipping a lot of class...but who cares!!im jus so lazy....leeling!!leeling!!...thats all i wanna blog today!!

VU night!!

2005-05-23T05:37:00.000+08:00

woots...heheh had my vu night on friday...its the first time i was there that i sort of had fun!!not so but it was still better than SAM prom!!the performance was pretty good!!we weren't that far away from the STAGE...so i still could watch!!its a small ballroom..but its still not too bad i think the best performance was the band that sang beyond - hoi fut tin hong!!fui yoh...so yeng!!like watching bon jovi!!heheheheh

we took a lot of pics...as usual lar...my camera also got like 114 pics liang heng's camera got 150...sigh we're jus cam whores!!nothing much to story about that night bcos it was nothing much...but jus like that!!.heheheh y do they have this for??for the girls to dress up n for the guy to look at!!sigh...eddy table, ming fei brought martell n chivas to drink...i drank too..heheh
i think that sort of place...u need ur frens there to enteratin u...n also ur loved ones...so that, that night will be a romantic night..my darling n i had never been to any prom or whatso ever!!...i wish one day we could...i wonder how will it be, how nice it will seem?heheeh

after that our destination was to cafe FLAM...fuiyoh!!the place is packed man!!the freaking toilet is so freaking small!!..might as well go outside wei!!!n ppl there are mostly from VU..bcos this unknown guy came up to me while i was dancing n asked me "hey, miss greeja really hates u a lot huh?" i was like what??how the hell does this ppl know!!n u dont ask this sort of question!!hehehe miss greeja has kicked me out of lecture hall 2 kali.. but to my surprise although all of us were wearing our prom clothing, lots of ppl were staring at us one kind!!i still think as long as they are a bunch of u...u wont feel awkward!!ahahah i was really tired that night...din had my afternoon nap..not for long though...but somehow!!the heels that ure wearing will jus kill u!!...jus right into ur nerves..so i left the place early..before i left..i think pretty much everyone was drunk!!sighh...

after that i came home n sleep...eddy called to ask whether i took any camera...guess that afree lost her camera!!...sigh sigh...her camera is damn cool ok!!...i guess she heart pain bcos of the pics inside!!

yday...went yum cha with hui shan n pearly n her cousin jean...i think thats how u spell it!!anyways, as usual it all day gossiping hahaha...pearly is disgusting man!!the funniest part was that i receive a msg from rajesh asking me to laugh softer...its so ngam...what n insult n the worst part is i dunno y i call my classmate!!they look so bored there...i feel bad man!!but forgive me la!!...we went pasar malam s well!!..eheheh

anyway, i think its jus fun once in a while u get to hang out with gossipers...eheh we will go holiday togteher alrights??

jesh 25th birthday

2005-05-17T15:17:00.000+08:00

im extremely happy for these few days!!hehehe i got back my econ test results n i got 41/50 weee.... i was shocked when my fren told me that man ....couldnt believe it!!but im definitely grateful!!!n my darling is so sweet to give me a reward for it...does that mean??he is coming back 1 week earlier!!hehe

im in comp lab now...teaching my fren rubbish on his SPSS assignment...damn lazy lar!!fri nite...was great!!we drank non stop!!everyone came!!my classmates were there as well!!that night was evelyn's bday...she definitely had fun...she is such a sweet girl, her bf is another amazing guy as well!!...we had fun...cam whoring!!rajeshhad his party there as well!my uncle (poh seng) haha n my frens,nard, andrew, chris, liang heng, azhari, danny n others *lazy to name all la* were there as well n rajesh open like so many bottle for us to minum!!in the end i got super high...bcause of stupid andrew open 2 bottles drank 1 1/2 n left, half for me to finish it!!bloody hell...but it was all great and it was really funny man!!heheheh i wish that the night will jus continue on!!...and we can party all night like it will never end!!i'll never trade those memories for anything man...it jus puts a smile on my face every single time i think of it!!i wish smoeone was there!!my darling!!heheh then the night will be perfecT!! too bad carmen n soph werent there...if not they will get drunk as well!!i make sure of that... and it will be even funnier!!eheheheh pearly and shan was drunk...i think it was more of shan getting drunk!!..she is damn cute when she is drunk..she will jus look down n laugh laugh laugh n then she will have no back bones man!!heheheh we had so many pics...at least 200 hahah cam whore...but my camera had only like 60 over i guess...not too sure about it...but if carmen n soph was there, they definitely will BOMB my camera with their silly pics...that i can still laugh at till today...like what happen in passion...for carmen's info..."ur pics i din del ok!!...i must show malau!!hehehe" they take pic of themselves on my camera without me in it??bomb my camera!!!hehehe
sigh...my exams are less than a month...im so gonna mati man!!i have not studied anything!!...and im thinking of going hols!!with my darling n frens!!hehehe so nice??how lar??i must study man!!shit...i duno whether should i get into monash or not?im afraid i cannot cope up with my studies there, as it will definitely be more difficult to study there compared to vu...hehehe thats jus great!!..im happy to see my parents are glad with my results!!weee...

rajesh is having a party in some place in pd this weekend...im sure it will be fun!!hehe but i dun think ill be going...sighh...sobss but anyways i hope he will have all his fun n story to me about it!!n i get to laugh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAJESH..may this yr be a great yr ahead(as i will definitely get more green tea kit kat isnt it?) as it will always be filled iwth happines and lucks...ehehh sighh...guess u are going sailing soon!!heheh dun wanna u to leave...but i need u to, seriously i want the green tea kit kat...get for me n ill pay u back!!...hugss...hope u had a wonderful day!!

.Lim . lee ling.

LOST SOUL

my 21st

pulau redang

this song so describe my mood now

results

sanctuary

after exam partayy!!

big girl LILIAN

velvet nights

memories

my sensitive skin

Loft KL

too many post for this month

my disgustingg feet

before chip-ping san leong

chip san leong - part2

mo liu neess

the garden party

new features on blogspot

geee...

metro gala night

anniversary

port dickson

maison

first post of year 2007

its been a long time

bad day

happy birthday SPASTIC

italy won!!!

FINALSS

GENTING!!

england vs portugal

7ate9

suzz is gone!!

happy birthday feirce YLL

haatyai trip

baby's birthday

words

weird

random post

RAJESH MAHESAN

anniversary

my life

wedding dinner

college!!!

dooms-day

valentines day n the week!

pearly's farewell-de canter too

chinese new year!!!

2006

2005

redbox

RESULTS!!

im back!!

eXXammSSss

angryyy!!!

funny story created from a stupid game played

the fat BITCH haha

short story by NAVIN MANIAN

assignments!!exams!!running out of clothes

random PICS

life??

the grand AUGUST

college started!!

results!!!*shit*

feelings deep down inside

the wonderful night in crowne

party!!!

uluness of lim lee ling

singapore=shopping!!!!!

sick....

madagascar!!!!

long distance...

VU night!!

jesh 25th birthday

results!!!shit